Stories

 I know I am a bit sentimental sometimes. Sometimes emotions get over me and most of the time I let those natural feelings take over my existence. It is part of being human anyways. And as of now I am missing that city I have loved for the past three years; Dammam. The wonderful city that gave me job and lots of food and coffee and friendships to last. The city that made me who I am today. The city that sleeps while I am awake. The city that lingers on my soul when I am weary and on the verge of giving up. And the city that I want to go back to. Dammam!

 For the past three months,I am enjoying my temporary vacation and I am loving it! I am enjoying how much I really need rest as in rest in my own terms. But it doest not mean I am not making any effort to go back to the employment world. I have almost hundred of applications online and via emails. Some responded some do not. And I have two interviews and employment offers but I am still on the decision time phase since there are so many factors to be considered. I have offered in Dammam as a Document Controller, which is my previous job in KSA but the offer is somehow a little bit lower than my previous one. Then another offer is handed to me and it is also in Eastern Province specifically in Jubail. However, a local employment is encouraging me. But then again some factors made me decide to not accept the local one. And now I am on the verge of accepting the Jubail offer or  should I wait for my other applications which might call me this December or January next year. The...

The best or worst for the records! And I did it for no reasons at all. I was lied about. It was not solo but group and so be it. Then almost midnight came..in the desert..something nervous had not come and I did it! And I slept. Thanks God for the last night. It will never happen again.

I was watching Youtube at around 6 pm yesterday when my Lebanese friend chatted me on Tango. He was a businessman here in this country and he was engaged in contracting doors and steel and glass. His latest project which was about to complete was the Red Lobster and Longhorn in Dammam near Shatea Mall. And so we went there. I loved his management skill as well as his business knowledge in managing his own business. I hope I could have business of my own in teh future. I was amazed by the elegant design of the two American restaurants. Maybe I could have dinner there when my salary come this end of the month. So that's it for now and have a nice weekends Dammam!

Lately I am beginning to learn to grow old as alone. Lately I am beginning to understand that life no matter what will go on and o and on. Lately I realized that I am the one really in charge of my own happiness and no one will. So I am choosing to be happy everytime. Lately I am beginning to live the life I wanted to be.

Where all of my excitement go? Where all of the fear and happiness now? I do not know. What I know now is I think I am on my deepest setbacks. Or am I? Is this the midlife crisis? I hope not. Last week I was in Rabigh to teach and demonstrate some of the basic documentation process that we have done in QIPP but to my surprise I was the one being surprised because it only took about four hours of lecturing and much like of an interview of my mission there. I just contemplated on the hotel of what is happening to my life now. I need a change of place again. New work? I am on the process of applying to other companies that might give me meaning and much more salaries. Am I hungry for power and money and fame? I really do not know. Midlife crisis maybe. Or should I marry the one? Or should I be forever as single as I am today. I am afraid of my future now. I hope God is near me. Please.

Sometimes life is an adventure..in reality it is..we are here to explore..we are here know the unknown..to get the trail of the uncharted territories. And we are here to conquer! Our light is our knowledge. Our strength is our belief. Our life will not be miserable we just follow our path. Even if it is painful at first just follow your heart. Even if it is nonsense just follow your mind. In the end life's all adventure moments are just like a wonderful stories written by us! So go ahead sail on the ocean. Dive on the deepest part of the sea. Enjoy the scenery. Enjoy the silence. And with yourself once in a while. Lost in a place. Lost in such a way you have to ask for direction. In that way you will learn that life is indeed a communication personally with others. That in order to survive you must ask, that in order to live you must be with the others. And sometimes alone. Just follow your heart.