Maybe

Just one of those days. Routine. I have woke up. Drained. I want some zest. I want some rejuvenation. I want some spirit! And everyday is just a boredom waiting for doom to happen. What's happening to me? I don't know. Stress? More or less. Stress of something? Getting older? Getting lonely? Alone? I guess so. But I have so many friends. I am active online and offline of my life. So what really is it? I don't know really.

I have given much of the time to think about it. I have given much of the free time to delve on it. And I have found nothing. I have found no shallow or deep area of my life. I think I am just floating and waiting for something. Ah that something. What is that something I am looking for?

A wife? a child? meanings? directions? what really is bothering me? there is none and it is bothering me I guess.

So what do I do now? Just do nothing? I guess so. It will pass and I will survive. Just like before. Just like that.

And I pray. Maybe I have forgot God. Maybe.